In my heart and soul,
in my self and my life,
I have carried a wish
an intention from the beginning
and have time and time again
unfolded it
in small and humble ways
as much as I understood it
I experienced it
as much as I could live it.
The first line of the quest
and journey
was a wish to bring love into the world
in my age and eyes of innocence.
This is not the story of the journey or
the challenges and shortcomings,
instead it is a quiet moment of
watching a caterpillar of thought
emerge as a butterfly.
Here’s what has emerged as an insight over time.
Love lives within all of us.
It is there within every single living being.
The quest is not to give love but to share it.
As we leave the outer life to explore the inner life
of our selves, our souls, our spirits
we discover hallowed halls of beingness.
Places to become aware of the substances and essences
behind life
within us
pulsing and breathing
flowing and moving.
Practicing, learning and creating from it.
Until the quickening comes
of an awareness that serving
oneself or others
no longer serves.
Re-emerging in the sunlight of living wisdom
a moment comes
when the awareness is clear and strong
that it is through the touch of humanness,
the gentle gaze of genuine interest,
the hand of a friend
sitting beside you
stroking your hair
in moments of life,
that love is not given,
it is awoken in the other.
And in that awakening
there is a vulnerability and delicateness
that can be shared
in the trusted circle of this love.
And through time
this true love awakened deep within
is a quiet magic
that anyone can share
by touching the heart,
the lives,
the arm,
and the hair
of another,
to awaken the love
that lies within them
waiting to be born,
waiting to emerge
in small
lovely
loving
and
graceful
ways.
It is to this beautiful wisdom
that I continue to
kneel in devotion
with an undying willingness
to be there
for all living beings
holding open
a space where
sleeping beauty
can awaken
and be born
into love.
written by Jill LaBelle Sophie